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heyy there..welcome to my blog! =) the end of this layout is soon comming...and i'm gonna move to a diff host too. horray. andd the commenting system lil thing is already changed for the new layout so yeah. it's messed. sry for the confusing-nesss o.O anyways..that's all. have fun kiddies. =D
-Leanne

Sunday[23 November 2003 - 3:58 pm] | ehh..

[mood: kinda down..]
[music: ocremix - fluss der Liebe]
yup..i'm finally updating..lol. yeahh i'm trying to get my new layout all together but i just keep putting it aside..oh well..it'll b done soon. yeahh today's been a really lazy day. church, piano lesson, eating/watching tv/napping/selfreflecting. too much self reflecting lately. i feel like there's two halves of my life lately. there's this one half where everything's starting to clear up..dr salm isn't such a pain to me anymore, but a teacher of life and what it's really about. my parents are finally understanding that it isn't always about the grades and that i'm learning a lot despite my imperfect couple of b grades. and of course, to top off the perfection i have the sweetest bf in the world :D. then there's this other half..where everything's falling apart. i really didn't want to put this out there on my blog for everyone to know...but i just want to say that yes, me and jun broke up. i hope u all can stop asking me questions about him and bringing up his name cuz i just wanna cry in a corner and stab myself everytime you do. yeah so that's pretty much the source of everything bad in the other half. he won't talk to me and it's really tearing me up inside. if you're not close to me..you wouldn't understand. but yeahh..long story short there was a very important promise about us still being friends after we broke up that wasn't kept. but shit happens. it just hurts me a lot cuz i still care about him so much and i love him like a girl loves her best girlfriend. ughh too much self-reflecting going on..memories flashing through my head every minute of the day making me wanna cry. then there's these questions all over the place like "if he doesn't care about me now..did he ever?" i promised myself i wouldn't get so personal on my blog like this..but i really need somewhere to vent right now..and i need something that's not living and wouldn't get pissed at me. godd..the worst of it was onn..wednesday?? not sure which day it was but my friends know what i'm talking about and that's all that matters. but yeahh..he kinda showed up at our table and everyone was joking with him and talking to him..and i wanted to so badly...but i knew it would make things worse. and i just started crying right there. it was the worst. and so many times i find myself getting all jealous over my freinds for talking with him and having such good times with him...and i really don't like getting jealous over my own friends. like just last nite...it was the mb dinner thingy. justin was there and we were talking and such...we were wating outside for our parents and i noticed we were rite by steff's house so i said "heyy we shld pay steff a lil visit or something" and justin said she wasn't home..i asked where she was and he said her and paul were at jun's house watching finding nemo. then i suddenly found myself wishing i was there with them...then realizing i had never even been in his house before. god i got so jealous. i just want to be able to talk with him....bahh. annddd the venting ends here. please, if u read this entry, don't go around sharing it with random ppl i don't know well at nvot or something..like i said..i don't like being soooo sooo personal on my blog but i just really had to vent. so i'm gonna wrap this up with a quiz i took...

Your soul is bound to the Rose Petals: The
Wronged. "'ve come undone and all hopes of mending
me are gone because the pain took my soul.
Can't you see? The only one who can put me
back together again is me." The Rose Petals are associated with sorrow,
reflection, and wisdom. They are governed by
the goddess Persephone and their sign is The
Teardrop, or Broken Love. As a Rose Petal, you are always self-reflective and
may be hard on yourself. You probably have
been hurt in the past by other people and can
sometimes distance yourself, as a result. You
don't usually let other get too close to you,
but you are very good at mending your spirits
back together by yourself.

What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To?
brought to you by Quizilla
woww...good guess quiz person.

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Thursday[09 October 2003 - 12:03 am] | birthdays! =D

[mood: chipper]
[music: save ferris - goodbye]
amy turned 16 today :]...err yesterday...whatever. but anyways...how exciting! :D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AMY!!
-sigh-...she's getting so old on me. haha today i told senora sturm that it was her birthday and that we had to sing to her in class...and we did...and i got a pretty evil look frm amy xP. i love you amy!! hehe. yeah i found out a lil while ago that it was my aunts bday yesterday err today err w/e. whoops. oh well. my lovely mom covered for me :] haha. -feels like a horrible person- =\. ohhh well - no use crying over spilt milk! ;]
tomorrow or today or whatever is danny's bday!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DANNY!!
horray! man. he's 18 now. o.O DANNY YOU'RE SO OLDDDDDDD friggen adult. haha i'm just playin with ya ;]. yeah it was a bad idea to tell me that it bothered the hell outta you that u were turning 18. mwahahaha. >:F ok no more birthday hyperness for now.

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Tuesday[07 October 2003 - 9:59pm] | meowww.

[mood: tiredd]
[music: yellow card - way away]
long weekend was pretty cool...did some cool stuff. yup. wrote my essay monday...it sucked. i was up late. =\ i had like no hw today so i finished watching all of stellvia. awesome anime rite there =]. steff broke her pinky today. poor steff =[. feel better!! ehh what else...hmmm. been thinking about a lot of random crap lately. not good stuff to think about tho. -slaps self- stop it! >O. aw well. sucks to have such a fickle mind. lots of birthdays happenin...or so i hear...but most importatntly amy's birthday's 2morrow...she's gonna be 16 =D -clapclapclap- andddd danny's birthday is the day after that!! he's gettin all old and turning 18...ewww....old.... haha jk u know i luv ya xP. geez tho 2 big bdays in a row. think i can handle it? =P yeah anyways. that's about all. i think i'm gonna nap now. or mayb just go to sleep. that'd b niiice. nite all =]

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Sunday[05 October 2003 - 12:22am] | random quiz time.

[mood: bored]
[music: armor for sleep - all warm]
took some random quizzes....killed most of them lol. here's just one of them..i'll retake some other good ones and add them on later =P


You're Most Like The Season Winter ... You're often depicted as the cold, distant season.
But you're incredibly intelligent, mature and
Independant. You have an air of power around
you - and that can sometimes scare people off.
You're complex, and get hurt easily - so you
rarely let people in if you can help it. You
can be somewhat of a loner, but just as easily
you could be the leader of many. You Tend to be
negative, and hard to relate to, but you give
off a relaxed image despite being insecure -
and secretly many people long to be like you,
not knowing how deep the Winter season really
is. Well done... You're the most inspirational of
seasons :)

?? Which Season Are You ??
brought to you by Quizilla

[[ edit 10/05 afternoon-ish. ]]

You are 'The Hardest Things'. You have good
intentions, and the only time people have
something bad to say about you is when you tell
the truth. You're very honest, and sometimes
people will take that the wrong way. Just keep
doing what you do and understand you can't
always make someone happy, even though you want
to.

Which Juliana Theory song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

Let It Be

!!!!!!!!!!!!!which BEATLES song are you?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
brought to you by Quizilla
yayy i <3 that song =D

you are Ringo Starr!! your real name is richard.
you are a very good drumer and you wrote only a
couple songs for the beatles. you're still
alive.

The Beatles Oh yes which one are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

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Monday[22 September 2003 - 11:58pm] | it's daddy's bday =)

[mood: insomniatic]
[music: joan jett - bad reputation]
horray today was my daddy's bday =P hehe. nothing rlly happened...i got to sleep in the first 2 periods tho =D [ being crippled rocks at times ;) ] i got some pretty shitty grades back today...what else is new? =\ ehh i'm doin pretty crappy but i guess i'll be able to bring it up...some how... bahh...whatever i did enough bitching about my grades today =P. i went to a meeting thingy today that announced the school playy...it's "Anything Goes"...should be much better than king and i last year lol. yeahh i got rlly hyper at the meeting tho and binaghsss and i scared everyone haha...good times =). blech 2morrow's gonna b sooo busy...i have beautyshop practice 3-4, a voice lesson 4-5, and some weird thingy at the church at 7:30...something about confirmation...yo no se. yeahhhh that's about it. didn't have such an eventful day lol...just felt like writing cuz i'm rlly bored and i can't sleep =P. here's a cool survey i stole from dan's xanga...u better answer it! >O lol. just copy n paste the stuff in the comment thingy and answer them...hopefully there's no max in the comments...orr that rlly sux. =\
01] When/How did we meet?
02] Have we ever met in person & have we hung out?
03] What was your 1st impression of me?
04] Have we ever talked on the phone?
05] Have you ever seen me cry?
06] Have you ever seen me dance?
07] Have you ever seen me drunk/high?
08] If you can spend a day with me, what would we do?
09] Have we ever gotten in a fight?
10] If you could give me a gift, what would it be?
11] Would you hug me?
12] Would you kiss me?
13] What major thing do we have in common?
14] What is my best feature?
15] Have u ever liked me?
16] Have you ever made me laugh/have i ever made you laugh?
17] Describe me using four or less words:
yeahhh you know you wanna take the survey ;) hehe

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Thursday[18 September 2003 - 1:17am] | bad dayyy =\

[mood: blarg.]
[music: gay chorus songs stuck in my head o.O]
TODAY SUPERLY SUCKEDDDDD
reer. yeah. i had a salm test today...which sucked and yeah ='( but then all the signing up for clubs got me a lil happy...idk y lol. yeahh we all joined japanese club lol....should be fun. =D of course after that i had the deadly class of nehila-ness:CHORUS (dun dun dun...) yeah that pretty much sucked as usual...i had an english quiz on act 2 of w/e the hell we're reading...i actually read it pretty well but i prolly failed the quiz anyway. stupid quiz. then i stopped to see if i made beautyshop...and i did! horray! and then i waited for my parents to pick me up after school...and i waited, and waited and waited....and i finally called the house at like quarter to four....no answer. i called my mom's cell and she says "oh i'm in such and such place buying a new car and dad was supposed to pick you up but i guess he forgot." how wonderful. so i call my dad..."OMG I FORGOT!" yeah i love you too. so i finally got home at like 4. then i just kinda procrastinated for a while...flash dance was on tv..good movie =) and then. the deadly. marching band practice. REEEEER. mr e's been a pain in the ass lately and i guess everything kinda just built up majorly today since he just kept being yeah. w/e no more details. reer. idk mb practice was just really ='( ='( ='(..and then my parents forgot about me again. anyways..he was pissing me off a lot earlier too...cuz i was supposed to go to a french horn sectional at lunch or w/e but i forgot it was day 3 not day 2. so he got all pissed at me. howeverrrrrrrr he doesn't give a shit when cassie just forgets about it. but that's the way it is. joanne and cassie are his little favorites and i'm not. rahh i rlly wanna quit french horn...but it's supposedly rlly good for getting into colleges or whatever. blah idk wut to doooo. i guess i kinda miss clarinet and stuff...cuz now in band there's no more cool clarinet section. clarinet was just a much...let's say....nicer section. and more fun too...like sung trying on my wristbands and such. and rob forgetting every flat...and amy just being amyyy...and everythinggggg. stupid french horn. y did i have to switch?. bahhh. and this blog probably makes no sense lol. i'm just kinda writing instantly on thought. don't worry if it doesn't make sense...i just wanted to let it out sumhow sumwhere idk. and that's not even the half of it but skrewwwww. anyways julene gave me a cute little comic today from foxtrot which i actally took the time to scan. how special. yeah the colors suck cuz for some reason it was like 1.04mb and i can only upload 1mb at a time. oh well...that's free websites for ya.... anyways here it is. knock yourself out.

if you can't read it says "they should have cast you in 'the matrix'" "you should see me when it's chocolate"
yipppeeee.

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Monday[08 september 2003 - 9:02pm] | blarghh.

[mood: STILL sick ='(]
[music: ramstein - du hast]
ughhhh i'm soo friggen sick today!! rahh!! anyways...i just thought that i REALLY had to put this convo up. jun and i are the most loving couple ever. roflmao.
iins0mniakk: FUCK
ReD KnighT 18: hm?
iins0mniakk: I FORGET HOW TO MAKE THE MOUSE
iins0mniakk: it's like..
iins0mniakk: D~ bottome half i think
iins0mniakk: lol
iins0mniakk: 8D~
iins0mniakk: nope.
iins0mniakk: SHIT
ReD KnighT 18: woah
ReD KnighT 18: its like
ReD KnighT 18: a happy sperm
iins0mniakk: ok fuck you. lol
ReD KnighT 18: lol
iins0mniakk: that is so not a happy sperm.
ReD KnighT 18: looks pretty happy to me
iins0mniakk: it doesn't even look like a sperm!
iins0mniakk: o~ that's more of a sperm.
ReD KnighT 18: lol
ReD KnighT 18: fine =P
iins0mniakk: y the fuck r we talking about sperms. it's all ur fault.
ReD KnighT 18: why the fuck do u keep saying fuck, u fuck
ReD KnighT 18: STPO FUCKING PMSING
iins0mniakk: FUCK YOU
iins0mniakk: YOU CAN'T EVEN SPELL YOU FUCKIN FUCKER THAT FUCKS
ReD KnighT 18: NO FUCK, FUCK URSELF U FUCKING FUCK
ReD KnighT 18: lol
iins0mniakk: i have to put this convo somewhere. lol

lolol. ok i'm done. have fun kiddies.

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Sunday[07 september 2003 - 3:34pm] | school! ='(

[mood: sick]
[music: new order - blue monday]
heyy everyone...school just started on wednesday. ugh. i met the dr. salm friday...that was scary. yep, chem's gonna suck this year. oh well...it's my fault for not dropping chem honors =P [ note to self...we are the ELEMENTS ROAR lol steff ] i guess school's just the same as usual...except with frees and no history! [ thank god i took it this summer ] no one really new friendswise...except ben! my "gay" best friend!!err...andrew ryoo. lol. but ben's better, don't you think? i mean ben is in like every word...big ben..bengay..benadrill! =D i went to justin's after that long ass mb practice yesterday...what a confusing night lol. i hope everyone survived ok o.O blahh i feel so sick...idk yy!!! mayb it's from too much hakuna matata with ben. lol. anywaaayysss....must. do. chemistry. homework. WOO I LOVE DR. SALM! lol. good luck to everyone @ nvot this year...especially you little freshmen =P

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Wednesday[20 august 2003 - 1:28am] | hullo. o.O

[mood: ouchhhh]
[music: junior senior - move your feet]
lol i just paid a little visit to my obscenely old xanga. hahah good stuff. the chatterbox died and my rlly cool song died too =\ oh well i don't use it anyways. marching band camp started this monday...good stuff lol. except the problem is i can't exactly do the marching cuz i cut my foot up horribly at justin's. bahh. damn you thing in the bush...i'll get you back one day!! -shakes fist- yeah so i'm walking around with crutches cuz i can't put any weight on this wound thing until it totally heals or something. bahh. what an annoyance. i really don't like all the attention tho...o.O and i feel so helpless and crippled. oh well. it should all be over in 2 weeks or so. i'm just praying that i can walk on it by the time school starts. eegad, school. i can't believe the summer's almost over! i've had too much fun hanging at justin's, obsessing over his sister, hanging at justin's.....lolol. ehh i've done more than just go to justin's with the whole crowd, but we're there constantly =P. PLUS i skrewed up my foot there...so yeah. let's see...what else is there to ramble about o.O.....omg steff's comming home from cheerleading camp 2morrow!...err today. whatever. but yeah...EXCITING lol. i hope she survived with all of "those cheerleaders" heh. i'll try calling her while she's on the death trip home. unfortunately she has to carpool with lisa. i feel really really bad for her =\. aw well...i'm sure she had fun there somehow...and hopefull she found some gay guys to be mine and amy's best friends!! rofl. anyways, that's enough rambling for the night. must. sleep. now. gahhhh.

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Wednesday[2 july 2003 - 11:42pm] | reeoar.

[mood: sleepy =\]
[music: AFI - girl's not grey]
woohoo justin's little sister is obscenely adorable! =P [ please don't kill me justin o.0 ] lol i'm gonna adopt that kid. yeah i haven't been able to sleep well at all lately and i don't rlly know why. but i'm really tired and i want some good sleep! >:O i guess i have some things on my mind or something but i don't really anymore...yet i still can't sleep. i have these rlly weird dreams too that i wake up frm in the middle of the nite. quite the annoyance. i raided justin's house again today with ram, jun, and paul. good stuff. we watched dead poet's society which is an awesome movie...definately see it or i'll bite you >:) i better attempt to sleep now or something cuz i hav summer school again 2morrow =\ wow i'm such a freak. i'm atually taking summer school voluntarily because i wanna keep taking chorus and band. am i a freak or what? lol. well g'nite all, and carpe diem =)

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Monday[19 may 2003 - 11:27pm] | yay for me! =D

[mood: content]
[music: armor for sleep - dream to make-believe]
wow. i had a kickass weekend =). i got to miss skool on friday and went to hershey park for the band trip. woohoo! it was cold and raining, but a bunch of us still went on water rides and got our clothes soaked...but we were having too much fun to think about how cold we were :) saturday was the holiest day of all...i saw THE MATRIX RELOADED ohhh yeah!!!! i definately was not disappointed..any losers who haven't seen it yet..GO. NOW. BUY TICKETS. i'm so pissed tho cuz i heard that at the end of the credits there's a preview for the matrix revolutions...raaa of course i didn't stay long enough for it =\ o well....sunday i was a lazy piece of shit. i juss kinda bummed around all day watching the osbournes and falling asleep. unfortunately because of that i kinda failed a test 2day i think =x but it's all good. heh. well there's not much else to write...i shouldn't be writing too long anyway since i kinda have summore hw to do..raa. but before i go...notice the hotness of the commenting-ness..OHH YEAH. hehe got that in today =) well i shall be gone now to slave away summore for skool =\ i promise i'll post better stuff later...i found sum awesome pics i wanna scan and post...mwahaha

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Sunday[11 may 2003 - 8:06pm] | happy mothers day! =)

[mood: tired..]
[music: rob dougan - furious angels]
woohoo it's mothers day! hehe. yea don't ask y but my family spent the day at the mall...rofl. yea so my mom and i went on a shopping spree (well actually my mom did more of the spreeing =P) while my dad just kinda carried the bags and followed us around lol. it was pretty fun tho. we ate dinner at stir crazy! yum yum =) after dinner i made my parents take me to fye where i bought "airplane!" on dvd and AND AND (the best part) THE MATRIX RELOADED SOUNDTRACK mwahahahah it's sooo good..listenin to it now =D. ugh i can't wait til that thing comes out...FOUR MORE DAYS! =D o man i had the worst nightmare last night tho..lol i went to c the matrix reloaded and it was bad. ohhh the horror...PLUS keanu reeves was ugly...wtf is with that! yea so my parents think i'm overly excited about this whole thing and that i'm gonna b disappointed...and i guess i'm overly excited, but COME ON, how cld i possibly b dissapointed?!?!?! oh god i love the wachowski brothers - i mean if they didn't write, direct, and produce the matrix...my life wld b shit haha. well mayb not, but w/e...life sux w/o the matrix =P wowww i'm prolly rlly boring everyone with all this matrix crap haha. oh well, i hav no life =\. hmmm i guess i should go do my bio labs and start my term paper....OR WATCH AIRPLANE!! mwahahaha every1 hasta see that movie - it's an old movie but it's sooo incredibly funny. i like cry from laughing everytime i see it lol. yea i guess i'm gonna go do hw/procrastinate rite now =P. ta-ta for now every1! =P

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saturday[10 may 2003 - 2:34pm] | here i am!

[mood: chipper]
[music: brand new - am i wrong]
wow. i'm so proud. i actually made a real blog! haha no more xanga or livejournal or crazylife or anything! =D i haven't quite figured out how to get my own comment thingy up...so that may take a while, depending on how quickly i figure it out. ugh i'm the worst procrastinator ever...i'm supposed to be working on my world civ. term paper but instead i started working on this =) o well...that ok...i think?? i guess i better go work on it or something...or fix this up a bit..=) mwaha. procrastination is the key to success =D

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cool.

//friends =)

Steff
Amy
Liz
Donna
Dan
Jun
Justin
erica
Ben/Andrew
Courtney
Dave
'Shlee
Rob

i just quickly put this list together off the top of my head cuz i'm lazy like that lol..so if you wanna b added [even if i don't know u =P] just email me or talk to me on aim - iins0mniakk.

//site stuff

yea i'm a big cheater so i got this layout off of someone else - god i'm such a noob =\ but go check it out cuz this is a friggen awesome layout! =D

Surreal Angel

Day Dream Graphics is where i actually found the layout - it's a rlly cool collection of mostly anime layouts, graphics, etc..u better click it ;)